Let’s get right to it, then.
So I recently went to an astrologist who basically told me about myself, the good and the bad, in the most softly objective way possible. What I got from that sitting was that I’m a way too caring person who doesn’t take enough time for herself and values relationships (a whole lot) without necessarily valuing herself first. He said a bunch of other things but I won’t bore you with the ins-and-outs of essentially who I am. I’ve always known these things about myself but I’ve never done anything to change that. I always say that I’ll do this or do that and that I’ll eventually learn to like myself. I always tell people how beautiful they are but once someone tells me the same truth, I refuse to believe them. I always put off loving and caring for myself while still hoping others will do as I say and not as I do, in the process becoming a hypocrite. Well, you know what? If there’s anything that 2017 has taught me, it’s that if I don’t start to care for myself a little better, I’m not going to last in this world. So, I’m starting here:
I’ve decided that I would create a blog to record something positive about myself, my day, my life, the people around me, etc. every day for the next year and see how much the love inside of me grows. I’ll also just be posting random things that make me happy and occasionally sharing my story (which may not always be a happy one) so you all can get to know me a little better. My hope is that as I do this, it’ll not only spark a light in myself, but hopefully for whoever stumbles across this blog, as well.
Since I’m starting this today, I’ll start with this:
Today was a pretty good day, overall. I didn’t do much but I did go to visit the new house that my family will be moving into on the 20th of this month. It’s coming along super nicely as we move our things in little by little. It’s starting to feel like another fresh start and I’m usually not too keen on those nowadays, since I’ve gone through too many of them in my lifetime, but this one feels different. We set up my bedroom a little more and that’s coming along beautifully, as well. Afterwards, we all went to Panda Express, my sister drove for the first time in a while, we got home and I drank some tea. It wasn’t a super eventful day but my New Year started off peaceful and without a hangover, which is all I can really ask for. I also finished setting up this blog and wrote this first post, which is a plus, as well. Peaceful vibes = good vibes and with that, I’ll end here and say goodnight!
PS: sorry I’m so terrible at transitioning out of these things. I promise I’ll get better.
See you all tomorrow 🙂
Through the Softest Eyes 